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Fairytale

Tale as old as time '
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then some body bends
Unexpectedly
Just a little change
Small to say the least
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the beast


A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true


Someday my prince will come
Someday we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be happy forever I know


I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

ambition |amˈbi sh ən|
noun
a strong desire to do or to achieve something, typically requiring determination and hard work : her ambition was to become a model | he achieved his ambition of making a fortune.
• desire and determination to achieve success : life offered few opportunities for young people with ambition.
ORIGIN Middle English : via Old French from Latin ambitio(n-), from ambire ‘go around (canvassing for votes).’

"I always like to look on the optimistic side of life, but I am realistic enough to know that life is a complex matter. " - Walt Disney

The expectations I have for myself greatly exceed those that I hold for others, but I will not be dragged down by a person who has no motivation to move forward in their life. I will lead an independent successful life, and I will achieve every goal that I have set forth for myself.

Life can be compared to wrestling. You step into the gym with your team, a support system who is there for you every step of the way. You grow up together, practice together and work toward the same goal, but when it comes down to the end it is just you and your opponent standing on the mat. The whistle blows and suddenly the sounds of your team become silent to you. No longer can you rely on your coach or team to win your match for you. They have helped you prepare, but you need to have confidence and strength to get yourself through. At times you are ahead of your opponent, but with one sign of weakness you can be taken down and lose everything. Preparing yourself for the future is the same way. My family and friends have been my team, and my mother has been my coach. Growing up I have practiced for success and now it is time for my match. Living away from home I no longer have my mother by my side to coach me through situations. My mother has given me the strength to fight my own battles, and over time I have grown confident in my life. I know that the choices that I make will effect the outcome of my match. Every move that I make from this point on will either help me advance or set me behind a few points. In the battle with my emotions and the world around me I am positive that I will not be pinned.

Forgive me not.

The talented professor Randy Pausch explains common situations in a unique way. I am a stubborn person; I lock sight on one thing and will do anything to achieve my goal. The book "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch shows that problems in today's world are not always one sided, and neither are solutions.

"It's not how hard you hit. It's how hard you get hit...and keep moving forward."
— Randy Pausch (The Last Lecture)

Question your decisions before they become a mistake.

Experiance

I read a wonderful book a few months ago. The lessons that I learned stuck in my head, yet I never applied them to my life. Carnegie Mellon professor Randy Pausch is the author of The last lecture. This book was written when Randy Pausch found out his life would be cut short due to his diagnoses of pancreatic cancer. This book takes experiences directly from Randy Pausch’s life to show us that we can take a positive understanding out of the worst of situations. Chapter 17: Not All Fairy Tales End Smoothly. Randy and his wife were married under a 100- year old oak tree. It was a small wedding with a Victorian mansion in the background. Every detail was planned out. The picture perfect wedding ended with a twist. Most couples ride off in a horse-drawn carriage, or a slow car ride into the sunset. Randy and his wife made a statement as they were whisked off into the sky in a multicolored hot-air balloon. The sun began to set and they had no place to land. A disaster approached as soon as the pilot mentioned the only place to land had train tracks running through it. Randy followed the tracks with his eyes only to stumble upon a train in the distance. With many risks at hand Randy had thoughts racing through his mind. He had just married the love of his life, and now both of their lives were at risk. He calculated the speed they would need to jump, but understood that there was always a chance for something to go wrong. Look at how he had planned the perfect getaway with his bride. In a world of chances we can begin to plan for perfection, but perfection in reality is unexpected. The life that we live will take many abrupt turns, and at times we may be disappointed with the outcome. We must remember that each horrible memory serves some purpose in our life. As Randy Pausch said: “Experience is what you get when you didn’t get what you wanted.” I strongly recommend this book to you if you are looking for some excellent reading material.

Changes.

"Be the change you want to see in the world" Simply said, hardly done. Each person follows a path of choice to a future unknown. The complicated situations that we find ourselves in on a daily basis shape who we are as a person. Recently I have been a horrible person. I have done nothing to better myself or the world around me. Growing up I was a positive young lady with ambition to change the world, or to at least put a dent in society. Volunteering was my passion. During the summer I would volunteer at a zoo near my community. The work was tough, the hours were long, but the guests were thankful. I also was involved in a local girl scout troop. The volunteering that I did there helped shape young girls into responsible respectful women. I was able to watch these girls transform over the years. I was a role model to those girls, and everything they saw me do they began to mimic. Know my question is: Where did my ambition go? I have not volunteered or given back to my community in any way these past few years. I feel that my impact on society is non existent. I know in the past I helped people create memories that will last a lifetime, but why did I let those opportunities run out? Is it to late for me to change who I have become? If only you could have seen me interacting with the young girls in my girl scout troop. I was their leader, and they looked up to me. What would they think about me if they saw me walk down the street? Would they still look up to me with their innocent eyes? Could I still be a role model for these young girls, or would they be disappointed in who i have become?

(I will always love you) :
You walked into my life, and I was a complete disaster. I even remember you telling me how conceded and self absorbed I came across. I put my tough girl look on and ignored the fact that your words hurt me. They hurt me a lot. The simple things that you say tear me down, and at times it is hard to get back up. I have fallen into a hole where it is easier to dig deeper then to climb out. That was not me, I have never been one to give up on what I want in life. You were there for me through so much and you always kept me positive, but now you have stuck me in a place where I can't tell up from down. The days blend together and nothing ever changes. I always receive the same answer from you and it is never clear. I don't need a relationship, I don't need a title, but I do need you. I need you to help me become a better person the truth is: I know I can't do it alone. I do a great job playing the tough girl and it takes a lot for me to admit that I can't do something. This past month I seem to be in a very low place. I have hit depression and happiness at the same time and it seems the negative attitude is the only thing that shows. When did I become the person who gave off a negative vibe? Have you always thought of me in those ways? Did I ever change your assumptions of me? I know that the past few months have been difficult for you. There have been many changes in your life and I have not been there to support you. I feel like each time you open up to me I block out your words and change the subject. When I do that I can't expect you to trust me. Over the past eight months you have changed me as a person, for the better. I have not only failed you but also myself. I made a promise that I would put others above myself and clearly I have not done that.

A new chapter:
"So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:6
Today I began a new chapter in my life. I am afraid that I will fail and leave my family and friends disappointed. I know that I have not lived up to my own expectations thus far and I hope to change that over the next six months. I wish to change my negative attitude and create a positive life lasting experience. I have never been away from my family for this long, but my goal is to return home and show my family that they have raised me to be a successful responsible young lady. If this experience can make me develop more as a person then I think I may be able to return to my status as a respectable role model for my sister. She watches my every move and has always looked up to me. Most people think that she is a loud obnoxious child, but she is just misunderstood. I have a wonderful sister and with my help she has the chance to become a wonderful fun loving woman. I can't say the same for my brothers. I have tried to help them, but now the choice is theirs. These six months of my life will change who I am as a person. It could be either a positive or negative experience and it all depends on my mindset.

"One man considers one day more sacred than another; another man considers every day alike. Each one should be fully convinced in his own mind." Romans 14:5

Trust In Me.

"If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you."
- Winnie the Pooh

Quickly approaching is the opportunity of a lifetime. I am estatic to have the chance to create my own fairytale in a world of magic, but seven months away from home seems rough.

The day I received my acceptance email to the Disney College Program my friend posted this on her facebook: "Dani is leaving me for a man in a mouse suit that practicly owns America...... UGH :(" I will miss my friends so much, yet they understand that this is the chance of a lifetime and support me 100%. The friends that truly know me understand that I am doing this for myself, my family and my future. I do know a few people who think I am doing this for the wrong reasons and I wish I could get through to them and make them understand that they couldn't be more wrong. So this blog is the reasons why I am excited for the next month to fly by.

When I was 4 years old I took my first trip to Disney. My grandmother and mother thought that it would be a dream come true for me, and they were right. At 4 years old I was pushed around magic kingdom in a stroller by my amazing grandmother and my mother who to this day is my best friend. They were so happy to see the smile on my face when I met Mickey & Minnie.

At 13 I took my second trip to Disney with my mother and my 5 year old sister. We went to all of the parks and waited in line for hours to go on all the rides. My mother had so much patience taking us around the parks and doing everything that we wanted to do. I took my little sister on Dumbo and told her that was the first ride grandma ever took me on. We rode in the same color as my grandma and I had done years earlier. I was self absorbed and thought I was the one making my little sisters dreams come true. On our last day we went to Magic Kingdom. We had not seen Cinderella and she was both mine and my sisters favorite princess. When we got to the point where we could take pictures with her they had told us that she was going to be on a break and would be back soon. Heartbroken we began to walk away. Then my mom turned around and gasped. She told me and my sister to turn around, and there was Cinderella. She told us that she couldn't take a break without seeing a few princesses first. My sister and I were speechless. She asked us what kingdom we were from and so many other questions. This memory is one that I have carried with me my whole life.

Two months ago I was looking at the picture of Cinderella, my sister and myself. I realized that while my mother and grandmother are both amazing people they were not the ones who made my dreams come true. I would not have enjoyed Disney as much if you took away the person who helped us on to the Dumbo ride, or the person who rented my mother the stroller or even Cinderella. What would Disney be if you took away each person who worked in the parks? What would Disney be if there was no one to compliment the little princesses that came to visit? The cast members of Disney don't always have the most elaborate role, but it is the small things that make a child's dream come true. I hope that while I am down at Disney I can make a little prince or princesses dream come true like they did for me, and that is why I look forward to Disney 2010.